I haven't blogged for a couple of weeks and I know I always do this and then give the "oh, sorry I haven't blogged for a while" spiel. But this time feels different.
I don't enjoy blogging anymore.
I've been thinking constantly about this. I feel guilty for not posting anything but then I feel fake for forcing myself to write something. I have so many drafted posts on here that date back for months and months. They're all rubbish. It's like I feel I owe it to someone to write something when I don't.
This has always just been a hobby. Something to do when I get home and I did love it but I've fallen out of love and I know that I just don't want to continue with Laddered Tights.
I'm so grateful to everyone that has ever read any of my posts and left comments. I really appreciate it. It blows my brain a little bit that I have the views I've got on here. Especially considering I cannot write at all... (I know I can't. I don't pretend I can. Even this post is absolute pants..!)
I think as well with blogging, and beauty blogging in particular, it has gotten so huge in the last couple of years that it has all got incredibly repetitive and nothing is original anymore. I mean, there's only so many times you can read about the new Max Factor blush or then new Revlon lipstick. I find myself just scrolling past 90% of the posts on my Bloglovin feed because they're all the same.
Don't get me wrong, I still love reading blogs and I read my favourite ones each time there's a new post and I'm still completely obsessed with beauty and buying new products. But how many times can one do a Boots haul and still make it interesting?
Mainly though, I just don't feel in a good place. It's something I have never spoken about to anyone and I don't really plan to right now but I have struggled a lot for a very long time. Some days are worse than others.
When I first started blogging about 5 or so years back I was in a really bad place and blogging was a bit of escapism. Of course back then blogging wasn't as serious as it is now and people weren't making a living from it.
Now it feels a bit empty and there is no escapism or anything for me with this.
I'm going to leave the blog online (unlike last time when I stupidly deleted everything...) You never know, one day I may want to try again. Or I may just want to use this corner of the Internet to vent and share things. But it is not going to be updated any time
I just wanted to reiterate that I am so thankful to any one who has ever read my nonsense. Thank you so much.
And sorry if this is disappointing for anyone, but hopefully understandable!
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